 traceless thoughts  Sunday, May 31, 2009
Times like these are what makes me feel alive. Up in the middle of the night. My mind races so fast - every emotion my body could hold, every issue close to my heart melted into one unending stream of thought. Yet, there is a strange calm that resounds in me. Acceptance, perhaps?
Heartquake.
I think about how love changes - in a way, hampers - daily life. How people get their hearts broken into a million pieces, yet still search endlessly for their elusive true love.
I used to love freely, with everything I had within my heart and soul. I'm not sure if I want to believe in it anymore. There are just too many fragile attachments, a dependency that no one can fulfil. Not for me.
To love and get your heart broken, that is an immeasurably painful thing.
It is as if beyond my boisterous, expressive surface, there is a gentle, bubbling stream flowing in me. The effect is calming, yet... it feels so hollow. I don't really understand either, but I think it's what you call Resignation.
There are certain people that I had loved with all my heart. But I am tired of loving them so much and not getting anything in return. I am mentally stretched and exhausted - I don't want to try anymore. I am just going to concentrate on people that show their appreciation for my care. I no longer want to be sad watching other people be happy. I want to move on.
My brain has not rested from its train of thought for 2 straight hours. Neither does it feel like resting. And neither do I want it to rest, until it finds the answers that it has been seeking.
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traceless thoughts Sunday, May 31, 2009
Times like these are what makes me feel alive. Up in the middle of the night. My mind races so fast - every emotion my body could hold, every issue close to my heart melted into one unending stream of thought. Yet, there is a strange calm that resounds in me. Acceptance, perhaps?
Heartquake.
I think about how love changes - in a way, hampers - daily life. How people get their hearts broken into a million pieces, yet still search endlessly for their elusive true love.
I used to love freely, with everything I had within my heart and soul. I'm not sure if I want to believe in it anymore. There are just too many fragile attachments, a dependency that no one can fulfil. Not for me.
To love and get your heart broken, that is an immeasurably painful thing.
It is as if beyond my boisterous, expressive surface, there is a gentle, bubbling stream flowing in me. The effect is calming, yet... it feels so hollow. I don't really understand either, but I think it's what you call Resignation.
There are certain people that I had loved with all my heart. But I am tired of loving them so much and not getting anything in return. I am mentally stretched and exhausted - I don't want to try anymore. I am just going to concentrate on people that show their appreciation for my care. I no longer want to be sad watching other people be happy. I want to move on.
My brain has not rested from its train of thought for 2 straight hours. Neither does it feel like resting. And neither do I want it to rest, until it finds the answers that it has been seeking.
1:52 AM | back to top
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